Finally.

Finally..
After all the sweat and tears...
After all come and go....
After the sun and raining...

Now,
all the sweat and tears paid.
Only true friends stay.
And the rainbow shines brightfully.


Thank You Allah.

ITU SALAH AKU. ITU LEMAH AKU.

LARI.

Lari dari keadaan,lari dari masalah,lari dari ketidak puasan..
Siape?

AKU...
kenape?
Aku tahu,mimik muka x boleh aku sorok.
tinggi suara tidak boleh aku rendahkan.
meroyan aku tak mahu kalah.
gigil aku bagai nak mati.
merah mata aku macam isap pit..



Jadi?
Nak aku tggu situ?


Hanya aku saja tahu sebabnye..sebab kekal nya aku banyak lagi buruknya..

WARKAH UNTUK MEREKA

always having good faith to ppl is the stupidest thing that i cant get rid off. having thought that the people are really changing and moving on are the other thing but having that people bitching me and my friend around is pathetic.YOU,YOU AND YOU may read this,yes i know you definitely will.how pathetic and boring your life are. seriously changing is not all about how you appear(where you definitely cant change your physical though) but its also the way you ppl thought and your perception towards others..daging yang busuk itu kalau kau tutup dengan kain sutera pun org boleh hidu tapi kalau kau cuci dan simpan elok2 msti hamis die hilang..sebelum yang lahir itu di ubah pastikan sucikan dulu batinye..ye,mst lepas tu kau tak akan susah hati tgk org senang.kalau macam ni lah perangai.sampai mati poin tak kemana. Berubah itu dulunya denagn hati yang ikhlas, bukanh dari hebahan yang JELAS.








Sekarang aku sedar, yang tindakan untuk tidak lagi brada didalam bulatan dan lingkungan itu adalah tindakan yang terbaik pernah aku lakukan.dan sedikitpon tiada penyesalan melihat kan KAMU,KAMU, KAMU...yang masih tidak puas hati melihat KAMI,KAMI KAMI gembira dengan hidup kami sekarang ini.TOLONGLAH, jangan hanya gah di hebah sujud,ibadah,sedekah dan jilbab itu jika kamu tak ada langsung berniat untuk mengubah hasad dendam busuk hati dan amarah lama..Sebab hidup kamu takkan pernah tenang dan tak akan ke mana..







Melihat kamu darui jauh sedikitpun tidak terpacul kutukan malah syukur dipanjatv kan tewtapi,mendengar kamu bercerita di belakang kami..hanya rasa kasihan yang kami ada...Jikalau ini menyinggung,jadikan iktibar.AMIN.











cc: mumu.yen.



Sadakallahulazim.







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Pergi.Go.POh!

aku tutup sgala rongga yg ade, masih ade roma tmpt dia menyelinap..
perlahan2 dia sebati dalam darah aku..
bila dia diusik..aku gusar..bila dia disentuh aku gelisah..
pergi aku kate..pergi!!!!!!!!

mati sementara aku pon x dapat padamkan..
dalam sujud aku mintak,setiap rukuk aku sajak..
tolonglah...pergi....jgn datang2 da..
biar gila aku simpan biar mati aku pendam..
tolonglah...bukan ini yang aku nak..
itu semua bisik2..
kadang terdengar,
aku girang!!!!!!!!!!!!dia datang!!!!
kdang terpandang,
aku benci!!!!!!!pegilah mati..
tolong suruh dia pergi,tolong bawak dia pergi..jangan datang lagi..maen jauh2..
silam dbelakang itu..
bawak aku pegi depan cari titi aku langkah jauh2 dari takuk yg itu..

brother n sister hood

klu btul ade kelhiran selepas kematian bak kepercayaan hindu...(mstla aku bukan hindu)
aku nak ktorg jadik adek bradek d klahiran akan dtg..boleh dok serumah ngn kakak kat tropicana village..hahaha
selain kluarga..aku ade dua org ni ...ade lagi..tp xde gamba nak letak..

kakak NGO n assistant dye..:aisyah n roshna.haha.klu buang sampah merata dan2 tu jgk dorg bg ko public lecture..haha

opah dan atuk...ain ngn akub la...dalam cite ni aku ngn mumu upin dan ipin,ain opah n yen kak rose,akub lak SEPI.sepppi GO!!

dalam cite ni aku lone ranger,sbb mumu ngan aku slalu geng buli aku ngn yen..
ye,aku x bleh lupa dorg yakinkan aku yg aku ade barah payudara.fgs!!!!!!aku da siap ajak dorg nak wat mamogram lagi!!!ape jadah?

ijat...dye ni kakak mafia,klu sape cari pasal ngn korg leh halo2 pompuan ni dy bleh kasik settle.ngn abg dy santos..klu korg jmpa santos ni prot kebas sebab gelak,haha.

nume...x boleh lupe satu tyme balek dri lcct lpas anta akub,smntara menunggu waktu imsak nume ade xtvt yg bleh wat org x senang duduk..dy pandai wat lap dance...hahaha.jgn cabar nty nume buat..aduyai..

ibal...ni lagi sekor,satu klas ngn dy ngn mumu mcm nightmare kot sbb dy ngn mumu slalu ade idea bernas tgn x duduk diam sampai madam pon leh wat x tau sbb dorg ape kesah,dalam klas ke ape ke ,yg penting kacau tetap kacau..

KARAU

-there is a say" when there are two ppls,there always be the third...."
but when u said when there is three? what will happen to the third?
as aisyah always told us that the beauty of the words is on how it is intepreted by ppl differently one and anther..

- mr scholar,cpt2 la masok...poket da kontang macam sahara..tp bejalan kesane kesini x ingat dunia.(oh ini xde kne mengena dgn yg di atas)

dulu bila yk masalah aku akan byk makan..hasilnye mmg memuaskan.dan kemudian aku jmp lg satu benda yg aku sush nak tgglkan iaitu..ROKOK,satu kotak satu hari.....aku xnak mati cepat!!!!tp aku ssh nak tgglkan ..sbb aku byk berfikir,dan diam ku itu memikir.pikir dan trus memikir..macam2.susahlah camni..

aku pemendam..ya..aku simpan dan akan simpan selagi ade ruang utk aku menyimpan.

walau pon menulis disini ade yg blom tertulis dan takkan aku tulis..kerana itu sudah aku tulis d pasir td dan ia hilang d padam ombak.ia..x semua itu aku tulis.gelak aku kekdang bermaksud tangisan dan tangisan aku adalah tawa..itu aku.semakin rapat semakin ade jurang.kerana aku mahu tahu itu ada batas yg aku xkan sesal sampai aku mati.

Jatuh.

ye.semua orang pernah jatuh.dan tipu kalau ade org yg x pernah jatuh..


tapi.....

kalau kalau kerap kali jtuh,apakah petandanya?
itu adalah aku...ya...AKU.

ada yg mengatakan saye tlh hilang centre of balance dan mumu juga menyarankan untuk saya mandi bunga.
ade bbrapa siri JATUH yg x boleh lupe iaitu..


1.Jatuh di dalam jamban di rumah makcik mase aku form 2.tyme tu pg2 bute aku nak pegi melabur,jamban tu pulak gelap..mase nak bangun utk menyelesaikan pelaburan.........lantai plak licin...trus kaki aku yg "kecik masuk trus kdalam lubang jamban.......babi.dahla blom flush lagi.ye aku tau mmg jijik tp nak wat cemane.aku gagahkan jgk tarik kaki aku kuar dari lobang itu,klu x,a pasal2 bomba kne dtg slamat kan aku yg tgh separuh bolen(bogel)...mmg sial..dalam gelap2 tu aku trus cuci ape yg patut wlu kaki aku rase cam pedih n sakit,nak cover malu pny pasal aku snyp2 kuar bilik air n rus g bilik x sedar yg darah menitik dr bilik air sampai ke bilik...mak cik aku dah kecoh2 tgk darah upenye aku pny..dy da bising aru aku prasan ade sdikit koyak yg menampakkan isi puti d kaki..masih ade lagi parut tu.klu mahu bukti,jmp nty aku tunjuk.

2.jatuh d gombak station.
tyme ni mmg gle nak g gombak station sbb baru jmp tmpt tu konon cam best..tyme tu aku ngn mumu baru abis klas malam x tau ape ntah...ijat ngn ibal da tggu kat situ...sampai2 situ dorg dok kat atas satu pangkin..aku yg konon2 nye nak tkejot kan dorg dgn yakin menyergah HAH!!!!
DUS!ade bunyi nangke busuk..aku yg tekejot sbb nangka busuk tu aku..muka aku da kebas keras sbb org sume tgh dok tgk aku.skian.

3.jatuh d depan mahallah asiah.
dolu2 mmg ghajin x tdo malam sbb jdi kutu bambu rayau kl.polis pon x ronda2 kl mcam mane aku ngn kawan2 buat.mase tu seingat aku tgh tggu syapa ngan yen kat depan mahallah asiah.aku bengang sbb mak gad tu x bg ktorg masuk sbb awal lagi tyme tu..aku pon xtau np yg aku nak bengang sgt..aku pon kuar kete konon nak p sound mak gad..tgh2 usha mak gad ni x perasan plak ade lumpo jahanam ni..aku pon ape lg jatuh kaki terlipat..tyme ni plak mumu bleh nampak aku dr side mirror..aku da cover baek pny..tyme aku nak bangun aku dgr mumu dah mengilai2 cam ponti anak remaja kat dalam kete..adela org lalu lalang,sbb mumu pny hilai mcm pakai mic dorg trus tgk aku yg tgh tekangkang kat bawah..aku pny malu..MERANGKAK ye masok dalam kete...malu?eh xal...

4.Jatuh depan kafe zubair.
tyme hujan prot slalu wat wat hal minx isi.aku g cafe zubair nak bi mix sedap..dah bli,aku pin nak balek gesa2.sampai kat bawah tangga aku nak blari nak seberang g mahalah,dgn slipar haus,aku jatuh cam superman..tp mix kat tgn mst la x lepas..tyme ni plak ade foreigner nampak.konon2 concern.tanya."r u ok brother?"..malu pny pasal,aku bangun x oandangmuke dy pon trus blah..pastu?ingat aku nak p cakap kat y aku malu?

5.jatuh d pulau pangkor.
kat sini paling malu...tp ckop takat tu je la...cite jatuh ni..yg tau,tau la....
hmmmm..



korg rase aku mmg kne mandi bunga ngn air tujuh masjid x?

hey.im back.

sand is the gft from god.
ocean is the freedom.
and sky is the shield.

tok sah nak cite berhentamlah weh.....

dearest mumu

happy birthday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
may all the best thing accompany u forever....
have a blast one!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

dearest mumu

happy birthday in advance mumu..
may god bless u..
may all the wishes come true...
u r the best..
may all the best thing accompanying u forever dear.
muah...

omg

ok,this might be the last update for me at proton n knoe wat i just bumped into wan zaleha radzi!!!!here!!!!!proton!!!!!
shes here to interview the chairman 4 the 25th anniversary..
omg..shes georgeous and what not...omg...

farewell lunch..

today is my second last day in Proton and with that the seniors here organised a farewell lunch for me and imran at chicken rice shop.....(well ok la dri xde lgsg)..
it was a fine lunch..but there was another excitement which i cant wait to finish up my nasi ayam...
mumu and nume wre here where they had their lunch at chicken hut( hhhmmm...sounds good than chicken rice shop...)
we hang out at J-co,even the tummy was still full..
nume had to stand with our stupid nonsense talking as she was the only babe..hehe..
and mumu was just having his another shophaholic segment and the result was not bad as he get pair of jeans boxer and more...
it was a perfect lunch to farewell the end of our attachment period here...


thank you.

whatever

growing old man in office...
pls mean what u say n say what u mean coz ppl are holding tight on other ur words..
myb we r jus like nothing but pls dont do this to others cos it will make u lose ppl's respect..
plss..
dont say if u things if its mere saying...
u lose my respect..
dont talk much...
u will later swallow it like fucking shit..

kawan part 3

Our Friendship


by Melinda Stankosky

Our friendship started many years ago.

Where the days have gone I don't know,

But when I think of all we've done

I stop and smile because we've had such fun.

I hope you know how much I care.

It's friends like you who create a pair.

I wish I were closer to share your happiness;

But near or far, I wouldn't miss

All the things you have to share.

I hope you know I am always here.

I know it is harder being miles away,

But always remember this when I say,

"Our friendship is a treasure

Well beyond any measure. "

kawan part 2

Dance Upon The Wind.


by Intimate Knight

I wasn't looking for it, but some how it came, and found me.

Before I had a chance to react, it wrapped it's warmth around me.

Like a thief in the night, it has come and gone.

I have nothing, but that vision to reflect upon.



Until chance comes again, I'll let my thoughts dance upon the wind.

All day long, in my mind, I walk love's lonely street.

Like a tired man that longs to sit, but just can't find a seat.

Then, there it was again, up ahead, to light my way.



Only to vanish once more, just like all my yesterdays.

Until chance comes again, I'll let my thoughts dance upon the wind.

I don't know where I'm going, and where I've been isn't much to speak of.

I just know my heart is always showing, leading me to some far off love.



Just when I give up the fight.

Here it comes to make the bad things good, and the wrong things right.

Only to leave me lost and lonely again.

Drifting away as my thoughts dance upon the wind.



It has a name, I think they call it friend.

kawan...

The Forever Friend


by Artur Hawkwing

On my own, but mostly the savannah,

Where the tumbleweeds fade away and die,

Before the glassy sun burns a summer of crystals,

The glistering waters of the high seas

Of which was so far a place as of where vultures roam.

I looked around but you weren't anywhere...

You used to say that you would never die,

But I took the wrong meaning into my heart.

Now the sea is wild with despair,

Deep blue like a prairie of flowers blue,

Where all children of God rest in eternal peace.

I saw you at the end,

You and I, brother and sister of nature,

Brother and sister of heaven and earth,

Your usually calm and heavenly eyes full of tears,

Bitterly falling one after one into a river,

Then the river of life turned red in blood.

My eyes watched in horror.

Slowly and deadly your heart became poisoned,

You disappeared without saying good-bye,

Not a word came out of your mouth.

You became like desolation in its grave.

When once the skies were a realm of stars

And the sun shone brightly in summer skies,

You were there to share the calmness;

But now I stand here in midst of the tall grass

And only the savannah remains.

shout out

ok..
org laen bleh acces fb n boleh update ble2,memandangkan aku x leh fb-ing aku nk shout out kt sni...


"korg...updatela blog...aku boring...byk kali refresh x de pon org update blog...."

tidak produktif

hari ini sangatlah tidak produktif....(sbnrnye hari laen pon sme je)
pagi2 aku bgun rse badan panas,tekak kering...
p ckp kat mak mcm nak mc je arni...
mak cakap.."pegilah...klinik panel tu bapak ko ade share.."
aku apelagi,sentapla sorang2 d pagi hari...

kahak kat tekak ni rse cam banyak sgt tkumpul mcm karipap pusing...(itu geli..AAk?)
smalam mak sempot...aku cam ade dpt hint2 nak menyempot jgk tp aku bo- layankan...
dri pagi ingat nk wat report tp aku end up stalk sume org pki google...
sume nme yg ade kat kpala aku,aku type jeh...
kdg2 tu ade la benda plik2 kuar aku pon klam kabot tutup...


boring....semak...sarat...
bak kate yen..."i need a vacation..."
alahai...nk p vacation pon klu pki bulu mmg aku dah leh g around the world..
tp....aku?nan hado.....ko hado?nan...
gaji da masok tok tek tok tek (pejam celik)
amma appa kass kudi,pizza sapde,wongge2...
ade bpe la lg...
ble mse nak p slimming word,jusmate 5 ke...
lemak degil semakin degil,spare tyre da bole anto kat kedai spare part..

bak kate mazru...
"haus di aidilfitri..."
aku x sampai adilfitri pon dah haus mazru...

p/s:ha...
xlupe..nak wish kat syapa....
slamat memulakan pkerjaan smoga dapat gaji yang byk...
n dpat tunaikan sume impian kamu..
kerja ngn ikhlas...
'ape aku carut ni?
all d best pa..

awesome short unplanned holiday

spending time watching back to back charmed series..
with big mac,fries n nuts...
 sleep....
HEAVY breakfast...
nasi lemak,bread toast n cereal..
swimming...
back.....
CHILLI's.....

 

 thannx to mumu..really having a great good time.