frog prince

ITU SALAH AKU. ITU LEMAH AKU.

2011-09-26T21:06:00.000-07:00

LARI.

Lari dari keadaan,lari dari masalah,lari dari ketidak puasan..
Siape?

AKU...
kenape?
Aku tahu,mimik muka x boleh aku sorok.
tinggi suara tidak boleh aku rendahkan.
meroyan aku tak mahu kalah.
gigil aku bagai nak mati.
merah mata aku macam isap pit..

Jadi?
Nak aku tggu situ?

Hanya aku saja tahu sebabnye..sebab kekal nya aku banyak lagi buruknya..

WARKAH UNTUK MEREKA

2011-09-18T21:10:00.001-07:00

always having good faith to ppl is the stupidest thing that i cant get rid off. having thought that the people are really changing and moving on are the other thing but having that people bitching me and my friend around is pathetic.YOU,YOU AND YOU may read this,yes i know you definitely will.how pathetic and boring your life are. seriously changing is not all about how you appear(where you definitely cant change your physical though) but its also the way you ppl thought and your perception towards others..daging yang busuk itu kalau kau tutup dengan kain sutera pun org boleh hidu tapi kalau kau cuci dan simpan elok2 msti hamis die hilang..sebelum yang lahir itu di ubah pastikan sucikan dulu batinye..ye,mst lepas tu kau tak akan susah hati tgk org senang.kalau macam ni lah perangai.sampai mati poin tak kemana. Berubah itu dulunya denagn hati yang ikhlas, bukanh dari hebahan yang JELAS.

Sekarang aku sedar, yang tindakan untuk tidak lagi brada didalam bulatan dan lingkungan itu adalah tindakan yang terbaik pernah aku lakukan.dan sedikitpon tiada penyesalan melihat kan KAMU,KAMU, KAMU...yang masih tidak puas hati melihat KAMI,KAMI KAMI gembira dengan hidup kami sekarang ini.TOLONGLAH, jangan hanya gah di hebah sujud,ibadah,sedekah dan jilbab itu jika kamu tak ada langsung berniat untuk mengubah hasad dendam busuk hati dan amarah lama..Sebab hidup kamu takkan pernah tenang dan tak akan ke mana..

Melihat kamu darui jauh sedikitpun tidak terpacul kutukan malah syukur dipanjatv kan tewtapi,mendengar kamu bercerita di belakang kami..hanya rasa kasihan yang kami ada...Jikalau ini menyinggung,jadikan iktibar.AMIN.

cc: mumu.yen.

Sadakallahulazim.

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Pergi.Go.POh!

2011-01-19T12:08:00.000-08:00

aku tutup sgala rongga yg ade, masih ade roma tmpt dia menyelinap..
perlahan2 dia sebati dalam darah aku..
bila dia diusik..aku gusar..bila dia disentuh aku gelisah..
pergi aku kate..pergi!!!!!!!!

mati sementara aku pon x dapat padamkan..
dalam sujud aku mintak,setiap rukuk aku sajak..
tolonglah...pergi....jgn datang2 da..
biar gila aku simpan biar mati aku pendam..
tolonglah...bukan ini yang aku nak..
itu semua bisik2..
kadang terdengar,
aku girang!!!!!!!!!!!!dia datang!!!!
kdang terpandang,
aku benci!!!!!!!pegilah mati..
tolong suruh dia pergi,tolong bawak dia pergi..jangan datang lagi..maen jauh2..
silam dbelakang itu..
bawak aku pegi depan cari titi aku langkah jauh2 dari takuk yg itu..

brother n sister hood

2011-01-17T00:38:00.000-08:00

klu btul ade kelhiran selepas kematian bak kepercayaan hindu...(mstla aku bukan hindu)
aku nak ktorg jadik adek bradek d klahiran akan dtg..boleh dok serumah ngn kakak kat tropicana village..hahaha
selain kluarga..aku ade dua org ni ...ade lagi..tp xde gamba nak letak..

kakak NGO n assistant dye..:aisyah n roshna.haha.klu buang sampah merata dan2 tu jgk dorg bg ko public lecture..haha

opah dan atuk...ain ngn akub la...dalam cite ni aku ngn mumu upin dan ipin,ain opah n yen kak rose,akub lak SEPI.sepppi GO!!

dalam cite ni aku lone ranger,sbb mumu ngan aku slalu geng buli aku ngn yen..
ye,aku x bleh lupa dorg yakinkan aku yg aku ade barah payudara.fgs!!!!!!aku da siap ajak dorg nak wat mamogram lagi!!!ape jadah?

ijat...dye ni kakak mafia,klu sape cari pasal ngn korg leh halo2 pompuan ni dy bleh kasik settle.ngn abg dy santos..klu korg jmpa santos ni prot kebas sebab gelak,haha.

nume...x boleh lupe satu tyme balek dri lcct lpas anta akub,smntara menunggu waktu imsak nume ade xtvt yg bleh wat org x senang duduk..dy pandai wat lap dance...hahaha.jgn cabar nty nume buat..aduyai..

ibal...ni lagi sekor,satu klas ngn dy ngn mumu mcm nightmare kot sbb dy ngn mumu slalu ade idea bernas tgn x duduk diam sampai madam pon leh wat x tau sbb dorg ape kesah,dalam klas ke ape ke ,yg penting kacau tetap kacau..

KARAU

2011-01-15T10:44:00.000-08:00

-there is a say" when there are two ppls,there always be the third...."
but when u said when there is three? what will happen to the third?
as aisyah always told us that the beauty of the words is on how it is intepreted by ppl differently one and anther..

- mr scholar,cpt2 la masok...poket da kontang macam sahara..tp bejalan kesane kesini x ingat dunia.(oh ini xde kne mengena dgn yg di atas)

dulu bila yk masalah aku akan byk makan..hasilnye mmg memuaskan.dan kemudian aku jmp lg satu benda yg aku sush nak tgglkan iaitu..ROKOK,satu kotak satu hari.....aku xnak mati cepat!!!!tp aku ssh nak tgglkan ..sbb aku byk berfikir,dan diam ku itu memikir.pikir dan trus memikir..macam2.susahlah camni..

aku pemendam..ya..aku simpan dan akan simpan selagi ade ruang utk aku menyimpan.

walau pon menulis disini ade yg blom tertulis dan takkan aku tulis..kerana itu sudah aku tulis d pasir td dan ia hilang d padam ombak.ia..x semua itu aku tulis.gelak aku kekdang bermaksud tangisan dan tangisan aku adalah tawa..itu aku.semakin rapat semakin ade jurang.kerana aku mahu tahu itu ada batas yg aku xkan sesal sampai aku mati.

Jatuh.

2011-01-14T11:08:00.000-08:00

ye.semua orang pernah jatuh.dan tipu kalau ade org yg x pernah jatuh..

tapi.....

kalau kalau kerap kali jtuh,apakah petandanya?
itu adalah aku...ya...AKU.

ada yg mengatakan saye tlh hilang centre of balance dan mumu juga menyarankan untuk saya mandi bunga.
ade bbrapa siri JATUH yg x boleh lupe iaitu..

1.Jatuh di dalam jamban di rumah makcik mase aku form 2.tyme tu pg2 bute aku nak pegi melabur,jamban tu pulak gelap..mase nak bangun utk menyelesaikan pelaburan.........lantai plak licin...trus kaki aku yg "kecik masuk trus kdalam lubang jamban.......babi.dahla blom flush lagi.ye aku tau mmg jijik tp nak wat cemane.aku gagahkan jgk tarik kaki aku kuar dari lobang itu,klu x,a pasal2 bomba kne dtg slamat kan aku yg tgh separuh bolen(bogel)...mmg sial..dalam gelap2 tu aku trus cuci ape yg patut wlu kaki aku rase cam pedih n sakit,nak cover malu pny pasal aku snyp2 kuar bilik air n rus g bilik x sedar yg darah menitik dr bilik air sampai ke bilik...mak cik aku dah kecoh2 tgk darah upenye aku pny..dy da bising aru aku prasan ade sdikit koyak yg menampakkan isi puti d kaki..masih ade lagi parut tu.klu mahu bukti,jmp nty aku tunjuk.

2.jatuh d gombak station.
tyme ni mmg gle nak g gombak station sbb baru jmp tmpt tu konon cam best..tyme tu aku ngn mumu baru abis klas malam x tau ape ntah...ijat ngn ibal da tggu kat situ...sampai2 situ dorg dok kat atas satu pangkin..aku yg konon2 nye nak tkejot kan dorg dgn yakin menyergah HAH!!!!
DUS!ade bunyi nangke busuk..aku yg tekejot sbb nangka busuk tu aku..muka aku da kebas keras sbb org sume tgh dok tgk aku.skian.

3.jatuh d depan mahallah asiah.
dolu2 mmg ghajin x tdo malam sbb jdi kutu bambu rayau kl.polis pon x ronda2 kl mcam mane aku ngn kawan2 buat.mase tu seingat aku tgh tggu syapa ngan yen kat depan mahallah asiah.aku bengang sbb mak gad tu x bg ktorg masuk sbb awal lagi tyme tu..aku pon xtau np yg aku nak bengang sgt..aku pon kuar kete konon nak p sound mak gad..tgh2 usha mak gad ni x perasan plak ade lumpo jahanam ni..aku pon ape lg jatuh kaki terlipat..tyme ni plak mumu bleh nampak aku dr side mirror..aku da cover baek pny..tyme aku nak bangun aku dgr mumu dah mengilai2 cam ponti anak remaja kat dalam kete..adela org lalu lalang,sbb mumu pny hilai mcm pakai mic dorg trus tgk aku yg tgh tekangkang kat bawah..aku pny malu..MERANGKAK ye masok dalam kete...malu?eh xal...

4.Jatuh depan kafe zubair.
tyme hujan prot slalu wat wat hal minx isi.aku g cafe zubair nak bi mix sedap..dah bli,aku pin nak balek gesa2.sampai kat bawah tangga aku nak blari nak seberang g mahalah,dgn slipar haus,aku jatuh cam superman..tp mix kat tgn mst la x lepas..tyme ni plak ade foreigner nampak.konon2 concern.tanya."r u ok brother?"..malu pny pasal,aku bangun x oandangmuke dy pon trus blah..pastu?ingat aku nak p cakap kat y aku malu?

5.jatuh d pulau pangkor.
kat sini paling malu...tp ckop takat tu je la...cite jatuh ni..yg tau,tau la....
hmmmm..

korg rase aku mmg kne mandi bunga ngn air tujuh masjid x?

hey.im back.

2011-01-14T08:11:00.000-08:00

sand is the gft from god.
ocean is the freedom.
and sky is the shield.

2010-07-21T13:33:00.000-07:00

tok sah nak cite berhentamlah weh.....

dearest mumu

2010-07-02T02:13:00.000-07:00

happy birthday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
may all the best thing accompany u forever....
have a blast one!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

dearest mumu

2010-07-02T00:18:00.000-07:00

happy birthday in advance mumu..
may god bless u..
may all the wishes come true...
u r the best..
may all the best thing accompanying u forever dear.
muah...

omg

2010-07-01T18:09:00.000-07:00

ok,this might be the last update for me at proton n knoe wat i just bumped into wan zaleha radzi!!!!here!!!!!proton!!!!!
shes here to interview the chairman 4 the 25th anniversary..
omg..shes georgeous and what not...omg...

farewell lunch..

2010-07-01T01:26:00.000-07:00

today is my second last day in Proton and with that the seniors here organised a farewell lunch for me and imran at chicken rice shop.....(well ok la dri xde lgsg)..
it was a fine lunch..but there was another excitement which i cant wait to finish up my nasi ayam...
mumu and nume wre here where they had their lunch at chicken hut( hhhmmm...sounds good than chicken rice shop...)
we hang out at J-co,even the tummy was still full..
nume had to stand with our stupid nonsense talking as she was the only babe..hehe..
and mumu was just having his another shophaholic segment and the result was not bad as he get pair of jeans boxer and more...
it was a perfect lunch to farewell the end of our attachment period here...

thank you.

whatever

2010-06-29T21:35:00.000-07:00

growing old man in office...
pls mean what u say n say what u mean coz ppl are holding tight on other ur words..
myb we r jus like nothing but pls dont do this to others cos it will make u lose ppl's respect..
plss..
dont say if u things if its mere saying...
u lose my respect..
dont talk much...
u will later swallow it like fucking shit..

kawan part 3

2010-06-29T01:51:00.001-07:00

Our Friendship

by Melinda Stankosky

Our friendship started many years ago.

Where the days have gone I don't know,

But when I think of all we've done

I stop and smile because we've had such fun.

I hope you know how much I care.

It's friends like you who create a pair.

I wish I were closer to share your happiness;

But near or far, I wouldn't miss

All the things you have to share.

I hope you know I am always here.

I know it is harder being miles away,

But always remember this when I say,

"Our friendship is a treasure

Well beyond any measure. "

kawan part 2

2010-06-29T01:47:00.000-07:00

Dance Upon The Wind.

by Intimate Knight

I wasn't looking for it, but some how it came, and found me.

Before I had a chance to react, it wrapped it's warmth around me.

Like a thief in the night, it has come and gone.

I have nothing, but that vision to reflect upon.

Until chance comes again, I'll let my thoughts dance upon the wind.

All day long, in my mind, I walk love's lonely street.

Like a tired man that longs to sit, but just can't find a seat.

Then, there it was again, up ahead, to light my way.

Only to vanish once more, just like all my yesterdays.

Until chance comes again, I'll let my thoughts dance upon the wind.

I don't know where I'm going, and where I've been isn't much to speak of.

I just know my heart is always showing, leading me to some far off love.

Just when I give up the fight.

Here it comes to make the bad things good, and the wrong things right.

Only to leave me lost and lonely again.

Drifting away as my thoughts dance upon the wind.

It has a name, I think they call it friend.

kawan...

2010-06-29T01:43:00.000-07:00

The Forever Friend

by Artur Hawkwing

On my own, but mostly the savannah,

Where the tumbleweeds fade away and die,

Before the glassy sun burns a summer of crystals,

The glistering waters of the high seas

Of which was so far a place as of where vultures roam.

I looked around but you weren't anywhere...

You used to say that you would never die,

But I took the wrong meaning into my heart.

Now the sea is wild with despair,

Deep blue like a prairie of flowers blue,

Where all children of God rest in eternal peace.

I saw you at the end,

You and I, brother and sister of nature,

Brother and sister of heaven and earth,

Your usually calm and heavenly eyes full of tears,

Bitterly falling one after one into a river,

Then the river of life turned red in blood.

My eyes watched in horror.

Slowly and deadly your heart became poisoned,

You disappeared without saying good-bye,

Not a word came out of your mouth.

You became like desolation in its grave.

When once the skies were a realm of stars

And the sun shone brightly in summer skies,

You were there to share the calmness;

But now I stand here in midst of the tall grass

And only the savannah remains.

shout out

2010-06-28T23:55:00.000-07:00

ok..
org laen bleh acces fb n boleh update ble2,memandangkan aku x leh fb-ing aku nk shout out kt sni...

"korg...updatela blog...aku boring...byk kali refresh x de pon org update blog...."

tidak produktif

2010-06-27T23:45:00.000-07:00

hari ini sangatlah tidak produktif....(sbnrnye hari laen pon sme je)
pagi2 aku bgun rse badan panas,tekak kering...
p ckp kat mak mcm nak mc je arni...
mak cakap.."pegilah...klinik panel tu bapak ko ade share.."
aku apelagi,sentapla sorang2 d pagi hari...

kahak kat tekak ni rse cam banyak sgt tkumpul mcm karipap pusing...(itu geli..AAk?)
smalam mak sempot...aku cam ade dpt hint2 nak menyempot jgk tp aku bo- layankan...
dri pagi ingat nk wat report tp aku end up stalk sume org pki google...
sume nme yg ade kat kpala aku,aku type jeh...
kdg2 tu ade la benda plik2 kuar aku pon klam kabot tutup...

boring....semak...sarat...
bak kate yen..."i need a vacation..."
alahai...nk p vacation pon klu pki bulu mmg aku dah leh g around the world..
tp....aku?nan hado.....ko hado?nan...
gaji da masok tok tek tok tek (pejam celik)
amma appa kass kudi,pizza sapde,wongge2...
ade bpe la lg...
ble mse nak p slimming word,jusmate 5 ke...
lemak degil semakin degil,spare tyre da bole anto kat kedai spare part..

bak kate mazru...
"haus di aidilfitri..."
aku x sampai adilfitri pon dah haus mazru...

p/s:ha...
xlupe..nak wish kat syapa....
slamat memulakan pkerjaan smoga dapat gaji yang byk...
n dpat tunaikan sume impian kamu..
kerja ngn ikhlas...
'ape aku carut ni?
all d best pa..

awesome short unplanned holiday

2010-06-24T00:01:00.000-07:00

spending time watching back to back charmed series..
with big mac,fries n nuts...
sleep....
HEAVY breakfast...
nasi lemak,bread toast n cereal..
swimming...
back.....
CHILLI's.....

thannx to mumu..really having a great good time.

dalam kepala otak...

2010-06-20T19:00:00.000-07:00

inikah dugaan yg kutrima mencintaimu sepenuh jiwa...

kerana bersamamu kesabaran mencabar fikiran..

kau janjikan bahagia kau hantui dgn gurauan berbisa..

kau janjikan setia...

rapuh ku berpegang untuk hidup bersamamu..

oooh..........

hakak faiz

2010-06-20T18:43:00.001-07:00

dear kak faiz....

thank u very2 much 4 the t-shirt...
that is so sweet of u....

he-she' talk.

2010-06-20T18:03:00.000-07:00

He Said To Me!

He said to her. ... . I don't know why you wear a bra; you've got nothing to put in it

she said to him .... . . You wear pants don't you?

he said to her .. . ......... Shall we try swapping positions tonight?

she said . That's a good idea - you stand by the stove & sink while I sit on the sofa and do nothing but fart

He said to her. ... What have you been doing with all the grocery money I gave you?

she said to him . ..... Turn sideways and look in the mirror!

He said to her. ..... Why don't women blink during foreplay?

she said to him .. . They don't have time.

He said to her. . How many men does it take to change a roll of toilet paper?

she said to him .. .. I don't know; it has never happened.

He said to her. . Why is it difficult to find men who are sensitive, caring and Good- looking?

she said to him . . . They already have boyfriends.

He said....What do you call a woman who knows where her husband is every night?

she said. . . A widow.

He said to her.... Why are married women heavier than single women?

she said to him .. . .

Single women come home, see what's in the fridge and go to bed.

Married women come home, see what's in bed and go to the fridge.

dearest yen.

2010-06-17T18:08:00.000-07:00

SELAMAT ULANGTAHUN...

Yang tulus ikhlas

Ingin sekali sekala dirinya dibalas

Walau hanya dengan dakapan di angin lalu

Yang selalu memberi

Ingin sekali sekala jadi penerima

Cukup dengan salam dan manis doa

Aku ingin kau merasakan hebatnya cinta

Dan leburkan saja serpihan calar derita

Selamat ulang tahun sayang

Kini kau bersayap, pergilah terbang

Rentaslah langit cita cita mu

Harap nanti kita 'kan bertemu

Selamat ulang tahun sayang

Janganlah engkau tak terbang pulang

Ku nanti penuh kerinduan

Selamat tinggal, selamat jalan

Aku hanya inginkan engkau setia

Kerana setia yang mencipta bahagiamu

heppy birthday...
may all the best thing in the world accompany u forever...

p/s;jgn selalu sentap ye...

shocking news

2010-06-16T19:50:00.001-07:00

azrinaz mazhar hakim was divorced by Sultan of Brunei late yesterday with one talaq.

santapan minda...

2010-06-16T19:09:00.000-07:00

1.pada suatu hari seluruh penduduk kampung berkumpul untuk menyeru hujan tetapi dari seluruh penduduk hanya seorang sahaja yg dtang membawa payung...
that's faith..

2.apabila kite menimang bayi pasti dy akan gelak sbb dy tahu kte akan menyambutnya semula..
that's trust....

3.setiap malam kte akan tdo tanpa jaminan yg kte akan hidop pada esok hari tp kte mash mengunci alarm untuk bangun,.
that's hope..

4.kite merancang sesuatu yg besar untuk hari esok tanpa tahu adakah ia benar2 pasti atau tidak pasti...
that's confidence...

5.kite lihat orang lain menderita dan ada kemungkinan kte juga akan menghadapi penderitaan yg sama dan mgkn kte dah pon derita...tp tetap kte amek risiko untuk menderita...
klu benar cinta itu derita....biarlah ianya jadi derita sampai ble2 sbb mgkn derita sudah biasa yg mne ianya mgkn derita yg org cari...bukan datang sendiri...
aku pilih untuk derita...
that's over confidence...

2010-06-16T18:44:00.000-07:00

The World's Richest Royals

King Bhumibol Adulyadej, Thailand

Fortune: $30 billion (down $5 billion)

Age: 81

World's longest-reigning monarch is revered like a demigod on par with Buddha. U.S.-born, Swiss-educated ruler remains unifying force in an increasingly politically tumultuous state divided among the elite, middle and rural classes. The declining economy, which slipped into recession in the first quarter, may fuel further tensions. Monarch's wealth is held in trust for the state and includes public investments in companies such as Siam Cement and Siam Commercial Bank as well as vast land holdings, including some 3,500 acres in Bangkok managed by the Crown Property Bureau. Thai government officials stress these holdings are not the king's personal wealth, but held in trust for the state.

Sultan Haji Hassanal Bolkiah, Brunei

Fortune: $20 billion (no change)

Age: 62

The 29th Sultan of Brunei is heir to an unbroken 600-year-old Muslim dynasty. Kingdom's wealth based on extensive petroleum and natural gas fields; also investments made by Brunei Investment Agency, the $30 billion sovereign wealth fund that owns luxury hotels such as London's Dorchester. Continues to battle brother, Prince Jefri, over allegedly misappropriated assets; most recently, the Brunei Investment Agency sought a court order to compel the prince to hand over title to a $100 million mansion in Singapore.

Prince Hans-Adam II von und zu Liechtenstein, Liechtenstein

Fortune: $3.5 billion (down $1.5 billion)

Age: 64

Heads 900-year old family and tiny Alpine principality the size of Bermuda.

Last year, his family-owned bank, LGT, was caught up in a tax-evasion scandal for allegedly helping wealthy clients hide assets. In response, negotiating bilateral tax agreements with U.S. and other countries; bank is now selling controversial trust business. However,

problems persist. His son, Prince Max, who is chief executive of LGT,

is being investigated by the German government for tax evasion; he

disputes the charges. Also owns an estimated 50,000 acres of land

in Austria and several 17th-century palaces as well as a 400-year old

art collection.

King Mohammed VI, Morocco

Fortune: $2.5 billion (up $1 billion)

Age: 45

His kingdom's gold is its near monopoly control of the world's phosphate supply; Morocco holds two-thirds of the world's phosphate mines and is the world's biggest exporter of the mineral, which is used in fertilizer. Fortune up thanks to a fivefold increase in phosphate prices over the past several years. Launched construction of an industrial park at Tanger-Med, which when fully completed in 2012 will be among Africa's largest ports. Granted women more rights in 2004. Married Princess Lalla Salma in 2002, the first Moroccan royal wife to be publicly acknowledged and given an official title.

Sheikh Hamad bin Khalifa Al Thani, Qatar

Fortune: $2 billion (no change)

Age: 57

Banking on tiny country's rich gas reserves to support economy in post-oil era. Already the world's largest supplier of liquefied natural gas; has contracts with Korea, Belgium and Taiwan. Plans to double annual LNG exports to 77 million metric tons over the next year. Assumed throne in 1995 after ousting his father in a bloodless coup. Passionate about art, inaugurated I.M. Pei-designed Museum of Islamic Art last November.

Prince Albert II, Monaco

Fortune: $1 billion (down $400 million)

Age: 51

Leads 700-year-old Grimaldi family; reigns over Monaco, which is smaller in area than New York's Central Park. Efforts to expand territory with a new district at sea erected on giant pillars put on hold due to global recession. Downturn has also shaved family fortune, which includes real estate, art, antique cars, stamps and a stake in Monte Carlo's casino, Societe des Bains de Mer. Eligible royal is a committed environmentalist; in January led a two-week expedition to Antarctica to bring attention to global warming, engage in scientific research and support the region as a natural reserve. Bachelor linked romantically to Charlene Wittstock, a South African Olympic swimmer; fathered two illegitimate children, a son with a Togolese flight attendant and a daughter who lives in California

Prince Karim Al Husseini, Aga Khan

Fortune: $800 million (down $200 million)

Age: 72

Spiritual leader of the world's Ismaili, chairs the Aga Khan Development Network that promotes investments in Asia and Africa. Horse racing enthusiast owns 900 thoroughbreds at stud farms in Ireland and France; holds stake in Goffs, one of Britain's largest horse auction houses, as well as French horse auction house Arqana. Values down in belt-tightening markets. Awarded titles of Grand Patron and Grand Donor by the French Minister for Culture for his contributions to cultural development in France; also made an honorary citizen of Canada in the past year.

Sultan Qaboos bin Said, Oman

Fortune: $700 million (down $400 million)

Age: 68

Ascended throne in 1970 after overthrowing his father in a coup d'etat. With oil revenues down, promoting tourism and maritime sectors; more than 700 homes are currently under construction at the Wave, a $2.5 billion mixed-use beachfront development in the country's capital, Muscat. Meanwhile, the giant port and ship-repair yard complex on the sultanate's southeastern coast continues to expand. Avid classical music fan; personally financed restoration of mosques across the country. Graduate of Britain's Sandhurst Military Academy, served in British Infantry before returning to Oman. Divorced, has no children and has not yet named a successor.

Queen Elizabeth II, U.K.

Fortune: $450 million (down $200 million)

Age: 83

Oldest living monarch in British history continues a full schedule of official duties... In April, hosted U.S. President Barack Obama and First Lady Michelle, who caused a stir when she hugged the queen. Personal fortune hit by declines in English and Scottish properties, stock market fall-off and lower valuations for collections of fine art, gems and stamps. Buckingham Palace, the Crown Jewels and the royal art collection are not included in her net worth, as they belong to the state. Thrifty royal apparently told grandsons William and Harry to rein in spending in tough economic climate. Long-waiting heir, Prince Charles, was reportedly rumored to have been asked to invest with Ponzi schemer Bernard Madoff; fortunately for the prince, he declined.

Sheikh Sabah Al-Ahmad Al-Jaber Al Sabah, Kuwait

Fortune: $400 million (down $100 million)

Age: 80

Managing simultaneous political and economic crises in the kingdom: one of the country's biggest banks, Gulf Bank, was the first in the region to need a bailout; the Emir's cabinet resigned in March after five Islamist members of parliament alleged Prime Minister Sheikh Nasser had mismanaged public funds, charges he denied. Sabah dissolved parliament; after new elections, he re-appointed Sheikh Nasser (his nephew) as prime minister. Wealth based on annual stipend actually set by Emir; unique among Gulf states as wealth is not tied to state oil funds.

Queen Beatrix Wilhelmina Armgard, Netherlands

Fortune: $200 million (down $100 million)

Age: 71

Fortune of Queen Beatrix and her family has been hit by declines in real estate and equities. Also rumored to have lost up to $100 million when Bernard Madoff's Ponzi scheme collapsed, though the royal house denies the allegations. Narrowly avoided injury in May when a .man drove his car into a crowd of parade spectators on Queen's Day, killing eight, including the driver, and almost hitting the open bus in which the queen and her family were riding. Rumored to be considering stepping down so that her eldest son, Willem-Alexander, can ascend the throne.

King Mswati III, Swaziland

$100 million (down $100 million)

Age: 41

Sub-Saharan Africa's last absolute monarch is working to ease recessionary pressures; shoring up ties with South Africa's new president, Jacob Zuma, who spent his years in exile in Swaziland. Getting pressure over his commitment to democracy: The head of the opposition has been in jail since November; opposition parties and rallies are banned. Beneficiary of two trusts held on behalf of the state; enjoys lavish birthday parties, prefers the Mandarin Oriental hotel when he visits New York

laju laju buaiku laju...
aku nak kawen dgn anak raja...
buailah buailah...

favouritism paart 2.

2010-06-16T18:05:00.000-07:00

DONKEY n SNAP pon da pandai nk pilih2 org...
kuajaq!!!!!

tp seb bek smalam ade teman..hahaha.
nume pon kne makan NASI GORENG AYAM gak lps makan bihun tomyam(klu x slap)
aku plak makan lpas aku da makan sepinggan nasi n pulut kat umah(teman mak bbuke puasa)
n pastu g umah anjang dy pon bg makan nasi,then makan lpas kalah donkey..
kira la bape byk aku makan satu malam....???
tp bak kate org rezeki jangan dtolak musuh melambak2 dah sedia ade...
dtelan prot da kenyang d luah nty bulimia...
alang2 da makan baekla mkan byk2..(btul x mu?yen?)haha.

ok harini aku da janji x mo makan nasi tp tangki tong dram dlm prot ni da
nyanyi lagu NOBODY but NASI...

saranghae!waklu!

JIKA ENGKAU PERGI...

2010-06-15T20:19:00.000-07:00

Bermulanya semua hanya dengan rasa

ada saja yang tak kena

Rupanya kau berkasih

Menyingkir setia

Sandiwara penuh dusta

Kini ku beri satu amaran

Jangan nanti jadi cabaran

Aku ingin kau memadam kenangan

Menjadi mimpi berterbangan

Jika engkau pergi, bulan dan bintang tetap masih di langit

Jika engkau pergi, air mengalir takkan berhenti

Jangan khuatir tentang diri ku

Ku janji takkan merindui mu

Bermusim resah hadir membelai

Menyentuh hati kecewa

Janji sehidup semati

Tinggal tiada lagi

Impian hancur depan mata

Semakin terungkap kepastian

Biarlah ku rela melepaskan

Pada mu cinta cuma lah mainan

Sekadar untuk senda bersama

Puas sudah ku berikan engkau segalanya

Jalan cerita pun nyata akan berubah

JikA EngkAU PeRGI.....IMrAN AjMAIN.

2010-06-14T19:38:00.000-07:00

aku punya impian dan cita2...

1.punya rumah sendiri....besar...msti ada 2 master bedroom,1 untuk aku s1 untuk mak ayah..3 bilik untuk adik2,satu bilik maid,sblh blik aku(t aku btau np blik maid kne letak g blik aku)..and 2 extra blek untuk tetamu aka kawan2 sbb umah skrg kecik nk ajk dorg dtg pon segan..so nty da ade rumah sngla nak mabuk2 ngn kawan2 d rumah sendiri(mak ayah?)

2.nak bli kete,angan2 kene besar tau..aku tringin nak pakai maiserati..tyme tu confim org x nmpak aku gmok,ye la poket pon gemok kan..(ske ati aku la)tyme tu aku sje je lalu depan rumah ex aku yg hot sambil hon2 keta aku dgn bwk maid aku skali(nty aku btau np kne bwk maid)...

3.nk bli satu mpv n ade 2 function.first sng mak ayah ngn adk2 nak p jenjalan ke n x payah naek aseng2 klu leh nak honda freed,yg kedua nak bwak nek genting ngn kawan so leh slalu g telok cempedak pd n genting same(ok,smalam dorg bru g pd,aku xleh ikot sbb klo ikot mak aku mst da ade kat sne tgu ngn parang time aku sampai..msti kne bawak maid jgk..(jap eh..jap g cek habaq na...)

4.tringin nak bwk family g vacation kat tempat bes2,sbb dorg x penah g vacation jauh2,plg tu pon melaka tu pon sbb kampong bapak gue..dengar melaka pon aku da migrain(tipu sbnrnye)..adek2 aku dpt keychain bandung yg mumu bg pon cam jakon sbb dgr nme je ntah2 dorg pon x tau bandong tu ape,tmpt jual air kot(ok itu bunyio cam bodoh)...thanx mu 4 d keychains kain telekong and brownies..n aku nak bwak kengkawan g plak sbb ble g ngn fmly xleh nak mabuk2 second trip bwk kawan2 so kte leh kacau yen ngn syapa melatah gle2 punye...(sory korg)..n kte bwk maid aku skali eh?blehla.....plssss(haah,japg aku btau nape eh...)

PRESENTING.............

AMINAH FOX ABDULLLAH AKA MEGAN FOX..

HA ..... ni lah maid aku......hot x?klu ade maid camni mstla kne bawak g memane n mstla kne dkt ngn blik aku...hahahahaha...so she can feed me anytime anywhere n lalalalalalalala.(kinky,yaits!)

p/s:nme pon angan2 kan ha x payah la nk geli sgt k?

tp still i am dodot no 1 fan!

favouritism

2010-06-10T17:47:00.000-07:00

penah x dengar jadah ni kat mne2?
hah?x penah dengar?penah jadi kat kau? kau? dan engcow?
x penah patotla x penah dengar..

tp aku dah sebati dgn benda ni tau mcm isi ngn kuku..
mcm mknn aku dari kecik...hehehe..
even dlm keluarga sendiri,msyrkt,kenalan...sape2 je la..

klu la ade org kate dy ske kat aku ke skrg ni mst aku gelakkan dy soh dy blek pk elok2 wat solat sunat istikharah ke taubat ke ape yg patotla x pon minx kaunseling..

hahahaha.
aku dah biasa..
sgt biasa...
dah jadi darah daging...

*x pyh nak ckp aku disturb klu xtau ape benda tu n x penah kene batang idong ko.ok?blog aku aku pny sukelah...AAK?

p/s: x sume org camni tp 1 dalam seribu.u knoe u love me.xoxo.

tahajjud.

2010-05-19T19:02:00.000-07:00

bismillahirahmanirrahim..
segala puji bg tuhan sekalian alam atas segala nikmat dan rahmatnye..
alhamdulillah
segala puji bagi pemilik langit dan bumi ats sunatullah..
allahuakbar
segala ampun dr sang pengampun yg sentiasa membuka pintu keampunan untuk hamba2nya.
subhanallah,
ku serah segala padamu sang pemilik arasy yg tertinggi..

AKU bersyukur...
kerana dia aku masih bernafas di muka buminya...
kerana dia aku masih ada ibu dan ayah yg sgt aku syg yg x ade tolok gantinye..
adik beradik dan kawan2 yg sentiasa ada bersama aku...
aku berdoa jika ade syurga untuk aku kumpulkan aku bersama mereka2 di situ..
tp jika aku tidak layak utk ke situ,kau tempat kan lah mereka ini di situ kerana mereka ini sentiasa menggembirakan aku,membantu aku menyokong aku dan menjadi penasihat yg tiada tolok bandingnye...

Ya Allah...
kau panjangkanla umur mereka,
kau permudahkanlah urusan mereka,
berikan mereka segala perkara yg terbaik di dunia dan akhirat
murahkan rezeki mereka..
beri mereka kejayaan..
berikan mereka pemulaan dan pengakhiran yg baik dgn kalimah mu...
Lailahailallah muhammadarasulullah...

Ya ALLah aku x punye ape2 utk aku beri pada mereka ini,harta dunia,masa yg x menentu,tenaga yg terbatas...tp aku tahu aku punya satu hadiah untuk mereka...
Tahajud ku sujudku ke atasmu dan doa aku untuk mereka...

aku tahu aku bukanlah hamba yg baek tp aku tahu kau telah kurniakan dan hadiahkan aku sahabat2 yg baek sbg hadiah yg plg berharga sampai aku mati..
walaupon mereka datang dan pergi tp mgkn itu atas hikmah dan kehendakmu yg mne aku redha...

aku x berani bermimpi memiliki ape yg aku ade sekarang dan aku tau aku x layak utk meminta ianya kekal tp jika benar sampai mase ianya ditarik biarla bukan rohku dikandung badan...aku hny ada KAMU dan Mereka ini...
biarla mereka jadi peneman aku sblm smpi masa aku pulang PADA-MU..

jgn biarkan kami leka... jdkan kami org2 yg solleh supaya sentisa kami bersyukur ats nikmat dan kurniamu..

AMIN YARABBAL ALAMIN...

does anyone has any problem with my fatness?

2010-05-19T00:51:00.000-07:00

ok today my level of patience is at the peak and i had enuf of humiliation..
i went to HR again today n one of this same old ugly lady said the same thing about me n today she was so dare to ask my weight and height in order to count my BMI n it shown that my BMI is 35 which dstated to be too dangerous...
knoe wat she did after that?
she told and showed ALL THE PEOPLE IN HR...
n ade satu makcik tua haram jadah ni menyampok"alah budak ni xpayah kire tgk pon da tau dah..."....
babi.pukimak.anak haram.sundal.pantat.bustard.
aku malu gile...aku xtau mne nak letak muke,well it might sound evagerated but tis wat realy happened...
np ksah sgt aku pny gemok klu aku ble offer skill yg lbh berat dr lemak2 aku?
aku ade mintak kupon ko nak tukar g makan kat kantin?
aku ade kcu mak kau?
aku ade kcu anak pompuan ko pon klu anak pompuan ko x hodoh cam muke ko?
aku nak bg amaran lpas ni skali lg ko ckp aku tau la nk watpe...
ko x penah tgk badak sumbu ngamok kan?
nty aku demo baek pny kat ko,slp2 ko trus jalan masok lubang 6 kaki sbb heart attack...
kawan aku yg dgr pon rse dorg ni da melampau inikan lg aku yg jd bahan...

korg ade mslh x klu aku gmok...?
ye mgkn aku yg hadapi mslh tp klu btul nak nasihatkan aku ade carenye bukan dgn care yg memalukan..
ini melibatkan kekurangan fizikal aku yg di laung2 yg leh wat aku rse rendah diri padehal aku xdelah gmok smpi nyusahkan org n smoy x leh wat ape2..aku stil leh wat benda2 yg lasak,aritu team building xde plak aku excuse mne2 outdoor activities...

korg rse ape aku patot wat...?
ye mgkn aku patot kuragkan makn...ye aku da kurg makan,sbb kupon aku da abs and aku xckop duit pon nk tukar kat dining hall blek umah bru aku makan..
malam pon aku da kurg makan n aku rse kne exercise..
weh,bodohlah aku ni klu aku xsedar sume benda tu tp sbb ade manusia yg rase diri sempurna sgt suke melihat kekurangan org laen utk dbuat bahan ketawa beramai-ramai..skalai lg sye ulang beramai...

again aku still percaya..wat goes around comes around..
and for you old ugly lady faggot like...
I CURSE THE DAY U WERE BORN TILL UR SEVENTH DESCENDANT!!!!
FUCK U ASSHOLE MOTHER FUCKER UGLY STINKY HELL BITCH..

LOVE,
fat hot guy
(so wat?)

things dat i hate n love about U.

2010-05-17T19:18:00.000-07:00

- i hate when u call me froggy..
-i hate when u sulking...
-i hate when u tried hardly to make me angry..
-i hate when u blur out of nothing..
-i hate ur clumsiness
-i hate ur nose..
i hate ur buncitness
-i hate when u dint reply my txt msgs
-i hate when u have free time when im busy
-i hate when u earn more than wat i earn n when u asked me half of my earning amount(no way man)
-i hate when u wake up so late on wikends when i have to go teaching early in the morning..

now.....things dat i love bout u.....

NOTHING....

COS, i love all the things i hate bout u...

patah hati..

2010-05-13T19:57:00.000-07:00

lately aku makin patah...
ye ke weh...hahaha.
ntahla,npe eh?
aku pon cam x perasan.
xtaula...
miss engineer np senyap je....
hmmmmm...

haish syarifah....

2010-05-02T17:30:00.000-07:00

thanx 4 d concern...
i will not repeat d same mistake..

gemok?issue?

2010-04-30T01:52:00.000-07:00

yes it is an issue...
aku bru blek anta result exam kt hr,kak ita dkt stgh jam bebel kat aku soh trunkan berat badan...aku pon layankan aje...
dye kate t bmi problem la cpt penatla...
aku pon perasan bnda tu n lately aku pon x ksh ngn ape yg aku bantai...aku maen sumbat je...sbb dulu aku da puas jolok kasi kuar bleek...
skrg ni mmg bdn aku mcm belon kene pam...
mne x nye pagi nasi lemak klu x makan kat umah g bli kat cafe bawah...
tghari tentulah lg meriah..
blek kerja nak jg ati mak aku wat2 kebulur mkn byk2 pdahal aku mmg kebulur pon...dah tu haruslah aku tdo smpi pgi..
itulah rutin aku seharian...

ok aku rse itu x shat..
n aku prlukan any advice to start my diet..tis is not only for the short term but for long term...oh nasi,mcm mne lah aku nk brengganmg ngn ko ni...
ko la jantung hati aku skrg ni...
kte bpisah kjap ye...bkn aku x syg ko tp aku wat ni utk kebaikan kte bsama...(itu monolog dalaman ye...)

lg stu aku nak cite org2 kat ofis ni...
michelle=bos,sumpah dy cantek gle muke cam michele yeoh...
ee goh= dy ni gelak ya ampun...bleh saket jantung n dy klu becerita mcm nak btau satu proton..
gauri=supervisor ktorg yg x bape nak supervise sbb awl2 dah dy soh ktorg cri tempat laen cri pengalaman mcm court ke law firm ke?sbb dlm smiggu dy tgk ktorg xde kje tp sbnrnye ade je keje..
=cazira=dy ni mak org yg comel,klu kawan2 aku dah lme aku cubit pipi dy sbb ble ari jumaat je dye jerit TGIF!!!!!!!!
ema=dy ni kawan baek ngn kak seri dok kat depan dy..kak seri da resign sbb dpt offer dr singapore..
=amy=secretary bos=nak tau x dy ni nme je secretary tp ckup time dy cabot x ksh la bos ade ke tidak.ktorg akan blek klu kak amy blek,dy cine muslim,comel...
adlene and kalsom:kalsom bekas majistret adlene dulu ade firm and one of the partners....dorg slalu bekepit n dorg ni ex-uia tau...
tmpt fav dorg subway n ayam penyet sbb aku slalu curi dgr dorg bork tmpt nak g makan tyme lunch...
-

ktorg da dberi amaran awl2 supaya jgn pggl dorg ni kakak klu x nak kne belasah..dorg siap kate "none of us is ur kakak!"
ktorg cam tkot nak pggl nme sbb aku rse ade yg sebaya ngn mak bapak aku kot..tp ktorg layankan je...

yg lelaki plak diketuai oleh bro nash,dy ni slalu plan nk p makan mne sbb dy kuat makan...i tink...heheehe..klu bos xde dorg slalu kuar p lepak2 minum tp klu bos ade elok je dok tmpt msg2..
bro izat cam bapak bapak sbb dy slalu pesan klu dapat blajar kat oversea wat partime n bawak blek kete dr luar negara...(waklu!....duit bli spender pon x ckop bang ni lg nak bli kereta)
ipin=dy ni satu,slalu bg keje key in data tp x explain btol2 ape yg nk d key in kan...ktorg key in je la..pas nio ade prob pndi2 le ye pin....
shahril=pon ex-uia,x byk ckp tp skali bkk mulut kay ngn cazira slalu pecah prot aku pon xtau nape,
azmin=bos ip,dy ni cam serius tp upenye satu kepala..slalu bwk ktorg p meeting...
dorg ade team futsal n ajak aku n imran join....
sbnrnye dorg ajak ayam sbb tgk gaye aku pon...ade gaye ke nak maen futsal?
aku coach renang n renang berirama kontinjen uia lah...(apesal?)

imran=praktikal mate aku,seb bek ade dy klu x aku cakap ngn dinding,skrg ni ktorg rajen wat sudoku yg ktorg tulis kat board kt ofis ni...slalu nye aku cpt give n duy yg abeskan...excellent..sbb trlampau boring kitorg bleh maen sudoku yg duku ktorg x pnh amek port pon...
time kaseh teambuilding...

aku x sabarnak blek ni sbb sok sabtu!!!!!!yaits!!!!!!!

have no...

2010-04-28T19:31:00.000-07:00

i hve no,i have nothing to show how u are so apreciated...
how u much u mean to me....
neither gesture nor nothing...
cos i have nothing...
i jus hve me..i cant gve more cos i am less..lesser i think..
if i have evrything bt still not as same as i have u...
dont go...pls...
dont go...
if u r hurt,tell me so tat i can heal it if not to feel the hurt just d same how u feel it...
have no..have nothing...

Tribute to amainulrasyid amzah.

2010-04-27T17:37:00.000-07:00

aku terpanggil dan x sabar2 utk menulis sesuatu arini untuk kte renungkan bersama...
korg mst ade trbace psl bdk ni yg terpampang di dada akhbar semalam dan hari ni...melalui ape yg korg bace ape kesimpulan yang dapat korg buat?
,cm mne klu bnd ni berlaku pada adik beradik atau sedara mare korg sendiri?

aku ade beberapa kesimpulan untuk disimpulkan...

1.ade kah wajar tembakan dilepaskan pada pemandu yg membawa kereta dgn laju dan melanggar lampu isyarat? undang2 zaman batu mane ni?malahan tiada gesture yg anda mgkn dserang..kepada yg menyerang bygkan yg anda lepaskan tembakan tu adek anda sendiri?

2.parang selalu dijumpai didalam kereta mafia ahlong tukang kebun pesawah dan sebagai nye...tp adekah selau parang di jumapai di dalam kereta seorang bussinessman yg digunakan isterinye?benda ni nmpak bodoh sgt apabila ianya digunakan utk menutup ke khilafan dan kecuaian yg bodoh...

3.pelajar ini adalah pelajar yg aktif dan pintar di sekolah,dan anak yg baek dan latar belakang keluarganya juga bark2 tp adekah adil utk memberi title penjenayah hny dengan kesalahan melanggar lampu isyarat dan lari dari polis?...

dsebabkan itu pelajar ini mati sia2...siapa yg harus dpersalahkan?
kalian bacelah sendiri didalam akhbar dan buat kesimpulan sendiri..
harapan rakyat malaysia adalah untuk kes ini disiasat dengan telus dan kematian adik aminurasyid di beri pembelaan yg sewajarnya..
ini juga adalah harapan keluarga mangsa...

aku sgt sedih apabila kejadian yg hampir serupa pernah berlaku pada keluarga aku ttp aku brsyukur tiada nyawa yg terkorban..
aku tau mcm mne skitnye hati apabila darah daging kte d perlakukan sewenangnye..mcm mne hati mak yg hancur apabila anak yg tak dsayangi dpukul dan di ikat mcm binatang...macam mne robek hati ayah yg hari2 bkerja menghempas tulang empat kerat untuk memberi sesuap nasi kepada anak2 tetapi ade yg melukakan anak itu sedangkan dy menatang anak itu bagai mnyk yg penuh...aku dah nmpk mcm mne ksh syg ayah dan mak yg x ksh ape yg akan terjadi pade diri mereka demi membela naseb anak mereka yg mereka aref kenal dan tahu x bersalah...

klu aku ade peluang aku akan ludah muke org yg zalim itu hari2 dan sumapah seranah dy supaya dy tau aku x redha ape perbuatanye...kafir laknatullah...neraka tempat kau..

untuk kakak2

2010-04-26T02:14:00.000-07:00

yg sedang melepak d wong jowo ngn mama(mumu)hahaha...
slamat wat sotsem eh...
aku kat sni boring gle...
jgn nakal2 k...

jatuh.....

2010-04-26T01:10:00.000-07:00

di dalam tandas kat ofis....
seb bek takde org dgr ade nangke gergasi jatuh...skit lg siku nak masok dlm toilet bowl..klu x...wasalammmmmm...
tgn ngn punggung msh skit...

-dah tau tandas tu bru lpas cuci laen kali jgnla msok...spe soh cri psl sndiri...

THEODORE FROM HELL..

2010-04-25T23:37:00.000-07:00

when u being cheated n dumbed by one man or woman,ppl will tell dat u deserve someone's better...

but when u r the one who cheated n duumbed ppl. do tink u can get dat someone bettr or best?

SNAP SNAP SNAP!

Wat goes around comes around..

when u deleted one's from ur list of fren,wat the r u tinking?
u r innocent?victim?
HELL NO darling coz u cant stand all those curse due to wat u have been faking...
face it,the world is cruel as i have to face ur cruelty as well..
dont u tink u desrve it?

once u call me munchkin....knoe wat?
u r fucking cheating pumpkin.
ooppsss!

all rise....
i rest my case.

-tis is for the penny,free ride,the lie tat u denied, for the call uve been making,for the time uve been faking n im fooled of fuckin spending..

i wish i hv my own camera...

2010-04-23T02:08:00.000-07:00

jgn salah phm..aku x meraih simpati sesiapa tetapi cuma terpk sekejap...
knp aku prlukan bnda ni...

1.aku x ade benda ni...

2.klu ade mst byk gmbr aku uplod kat blog,(tp sbnrnye x sbb aku ni buta teknology sbnrye...)

3.aku xde la nak tehegeh2 soh org tgkap gmbr aku...

4.xla segan,sbb aku ade space aku sndiri...

5.org malu nk tgkp gmbr ngn aku sbb aku ni x comercial,hodoh,x fotogenik, makn ruang..

6.dulu gf aku pon x mo amek gmbr ngn aku...wat do uyou expect?

7.aku nk sgt jot moment2 yg memorable..

8.bru jap ni tgkp gmbr ngn piala thomas yg dorg letak kat butik proton..2 pon aku segan tp si imran ni pakse aku amek gambar..(sorry weh,mst berat hp ko...hahaha)

tp aku x ksh pon sbnrnye sbb kawan2 aku sume bleh amek gmbr aku n x pernah bkira pon space yg aku gune dlm x kirela hp ke,dslr ke...(time kaseh korg)...

yg stakat ade kamera dok pki kodak bajet2 klu x mo amek gmbr aku pon aku xksh..waklu...membazir kodak la ape la...ko x hot pon...
tp ble rmi dok puji ko pnye bontot pon kembang cam yis kene peram bawah bontot rakishi patu..tau x?

mimpi...

2010-04-21T20:36:00.000-07:00

orang kate klu mimpi x elok x baek cte...
pg2 aku da tny mak klu mimpi mcm 2 ape tandenye...
mak kate ade org nak 'pergi....'
alamak....
aku da cuak...x senang duduk...
miss engineer comforted me..thanx miss engineer...hmmmm.
aku harap tak ade benda yg buruk akan berlaku..
aku blum sedia utk itu...

Rsults....

2010-04-20T23:10:00.000-07:00

sepatutnye kluar smalam tp aku dapat cek arini pas tepon org legal unit...
alhamdulillah,stakat ni sume lulus tp ade dua subjek yg x kuar lg so xleh la nk lega sangat..tp........
aku rse graf peningkatan aku menurun....sangat menurun...
aku perlu lakukan sesuatu,mesti lakukan sesuatu..
aku kne kaji balek ape matlamat aku sbnnrnye,kaji thap kemampuan aku....

trime kaseh mumu arep ngn ibal..
aku rse klu xde discussion ngn korg nak lulus pon susah kot....
time kaseh..

NAbi ade bkate celakalah org yang hari ini lbh trok dr semalam..
aku x mahu berada d kalangan itu...
seharysnye aku muhasabah dn bangkit sbb tgll lg setahun saje lg untuk aku habiskan dan bri sesuatu utk ibu bapa aku banggakan...

stop thinking....

2010-04-20T20:22:00.002-07:00

aku mule rindu pada cokelat celop...tandanye aku da move on,tp mcm rndu kat org yg salah la plak...hmmmm...
based on experience aku rse x slah pon klu rndu tp jgn rindu kat org yg memang salah...g la mampos nak rindu ngn ko!waklu!

mumu....

2010-04-20T00:37:00.000-07:00

mu....hp aku mati mu....
aku rse saman aku satu je yg ilang kunci tu...
aku x tau nk contact ko pki ape...

2010-04-15T21:23:00.000-07:00

aku ade pantun untuk kawan2 sekalian...
untuk mumu yen syafaa shima hazeman akub ain aisyah roshna,hana sahal numeraa aifaa.kak maria,kak faiz,abang hairi....

tetak tetak batang mempelas
hendak dibuat pagar ciku
budi tuan x dapat kubalas
ku kenang dikau dalam doaku...

JIJIK PART 2

2010-04-15T17:07:00.001-07:00

Sorry smalam x sempat nak abs kan blog sbb kne pggl g meeting tp bkn wat ape pon pg tgk cmne org vmeeting je..

sekarang aku tau knape ko cam x ske sume benda pasal aku sampai bau perfume aku pon ko x ske n aku botak rambut pon ko cam x ske...hmmm...
ko tau x aku suke sume benda pasal ko,tapi aku x puji ko dpn muke ko,tp ko slalu tny aku ko cantik ke x?
dulu aku rse ko cantek skrg minx maaf byk,mmg la ko skrg tgh nk up kan tp klu perangai ko cmni aku rse .....ntahla.

aku nak ucap kan trime kaseh kat sume kawan2 aku sbb bg smmgt n 4 being very supportive yaw..fuck u bros and sistah(hahahaha)..
aku tau korg bkn bute2 nak back up aku sbb korg ade sme2 ngn aku being the witnesses of the whole drama swasta.mumu time kaseh sbb bwk comrade2 ktwe dtg bagi semangat kat aku.syapa and ain thanx 4 d revelation.akub thanx jd supporter,yen thanx 4 sharing d crying and check me out whether im ok or not,mumu pon sme thanx byk2.kaka faiz n kak maria thanx bg kate2 peransang,hezman,ayat ko mmg baek punye,superb.shima,tanx bt aku x rse mnyesal.akub,thanx wat aku sedar yg pompuan ni sbnrye JABLAI..ROshy and Aishy one in penang and one in UN,thanx alot.aji,numera,raihana sahal,thanx byk2...
aku x tau mcm mne nak ucap time ksh ngn korg weh...
tuhan je yg mampu menmbalas jase baek korg..
mumu,bnd ni bkn lg renggangkan kte tp wat kte lg kuat?(ha apesal?cam gay kan?g la mampos,dy je tau susah senang jerih payah aku,bkn tu je dy pon tau cmne ssh aku nak wat sume benda nak amik ati ko smate2...thanx mu.thanx)

n skrg aku da ceratain...
ko mak tau x sblm aku propose ko aku da wat istikharah tp aku mmg dpt petunjuk bkn ko,tp sbb aku xnak maen2 and sia2 kan ati anak org aku ltak tepi istkharah tu which satu lg kebodohan aku n tuhan mmg nk tunjuk tat u r not d one,awl2 lg dy da tunjuk...

wahai wanita yg manis berbaju biru laut..
klu benar lah kau yg ditulis kan untuk aku di loh mahfus,aku akan tunggu kau..
klu itu hnylah petanda lain aku tau kau akn dapat lelaki yg baik sbb kau adalah perempuan yang baik..amin.

wahai wanita penghancur hati...
kau mmg bukan untu aku dan sekarang aku yakin,mgkn aku x layak untuk kau tp aku tahu dan padsti kau mmg x layak untuk ade sejenkal temapat pon dlm hati aku..aku dah buang kau jauh2,jgn datang dekat walau dgn ape bentuk dan rupe skali pon sbb aku da x sanggup lihat kau sbb aku rse sakit yang amat teramat sakit...
aku perlu mase sbb hati aku dah nazak,mgkn mati trus utk kau...

sekarang aku akn truskan hidup sbb aku byk lg sebab utk hidup dengan gembira dan aku hidup juga sbb nak tgk ko sakit cmne aku sakit...wat goes arounfd comes around..
aku JIJIK.

JIJIK part 1

2010-04-14T23:03:00.000-07:00

assalamualaikum..
merujuk kepada entry2 emo yg lepas,sekarang aku sudah move on..untuk selama2 nya...
entry ini aku dedikasikan untuk engkau yg aku xtau dah nk pggl ape...
ko tau kan aku sakit?
ko tau x mcm mne aku skit ble aku tau?
ko kte ko rtespect aku?
X! KO TIPU AKU KO TIPU DIRI KO.jgn slhkan org sekelilingh yg jadi penyebab sbb ko dah besar panjang and hot pulak tu..ko harus tau consequence ats ape yg ko wat.
ko ckp senang nk end up baek2...FUCK U.
KO SNANG CKP SBB KO MMG X RSE PAPE PON,KONON KO DA sacrifice perasaan ko..pegi la mati.ko nak wat cam ko jd mgsa keadan.pegila mampos.
weh,aku mrah yg teramat sgt ngn ko ni.aku x ksh jd dayus klu bnd tu bole ajar ko jgn maen2 kan perasaan org..
mayb ko x rse ape2 sbb ko hot cantek,petik jari,chat2 kat ym berderet kot yg dtg menyembah isap ibu jari kaki ko..
ptotla ko x nak tgkp even picture ngn aku,2 x kshla sbb aku pon x la kebulur sgt bergambar ngn ko...
aku menyesal n aku JIJIK weh buang mase tenaga ringgit kat ko.

jgn nk ckp byk klu kwn2 aku mengata ko mcm2 sbb ko rse dgn ape yg ko dah wat maki tu a ku rse x ckup we..
belajarla weh hormat perasaan org yang syang kat ko n jgn bg harapan klu ko awl2 x nak..senang cter,skrg ko da wat bnd ni cam drama swasta.STANDING OVATION untuk ko.
patotla ko mcm jijik ngn aku rupenye ko mmg betul2 jijik.aku plak cam org bodoh terhegeh2 kat ko..aku malu.ko tau x aku malu?
klu ko ckp ko ske kat besfren aku awl2 pon aku x ksh,ni ko da wat dy pon skali pissed off.
ko ni psycho la weh.
tp aku pcaye wat goes around come around..
pegi jahanamla family ko pesume suke kat aku tu pon nista ko jgk.smalam ptg ko bru ckap ko rndu aku then mlm ko ckap len.MUNAFIQ!

KO nak kte jadi kawan kan?
skolah mne ko blaja da lpas ape yg ko wat aku leh sronok2 jadi kawan baek ngn ko?
skolah menipu ko ajar kot.
kawan2 aku soh aku benci ko,n dorg btol sbb dorg tau mcmne aku ni da syg kat ko.
n jgn pernah salahlkan dorg sbb ni sume salah ko..
dulu aku slalu rse sume benda x kene tu salah aku tp skrg aku lega bkn sbb aku nak tuding jari tp ko rse aku nk tuding jari kt muke aku ke?
ok la mmg padan la ngn muke aku sbb cpt sgt syg kat org..ko tgk ko layan aku cam taik pon aku leh syg kat ko ko kan?

tlg muhasaabah la weh....
nty aku sambung lagi sbb kol 3 ni kne g meeting...

move on...

2010-04-13T17:56:00.000-07:00

should i.....?

isnt it too early?

isnt it too late?

there is neither clarification nor crystalisation...

should i wait?

i am not a prince charming...

i am frog prince....

dis silent relationship is killing me softly gently but deep hurtedly...

dis is not sweet n dis is hell fucking mess..tq.

deepika an kareena..

2010-04-13T17:40:00.000-07:00

miss engineer and miss refugee protector....

i miss u both....

p/s: rindu kak maria,abg hairi,kak faiz,dodot(motif?).kak jimi n abg iju...

2nd boring day...

2010-04-12T22:59:00.000-07:00

hari ni xde ape yg bertambah tp aku sempat tdo sambil mngadap polisi kejadah ni...
biasala...
g lunch td aku mberanikan diri membeli sekotak rokok dunhill 14 tp aku xtau nak isap katne sbb ble ofis mate senior tnye spe merokok aku x mengaku sbb tkot klu2 dy kenal bapak aku...
aku isap kat garden..agk heaven berlatarkan lautan kereta yg ade kat COE ni...
yen kte dorg nak g maen ice skating then nak p williams...
kuang aja kan korg...hahahha
xpe,papa mencari rezeki yg utk korg...

hmmmmmmm...skrg entry emos plak?
r uready?
aku x tau nak wat pe.....?
k aku tny korg,klu korg rindu kat org ape korg wat,btau org tu kan?
tp aku x rse nak btau tp aku nak btau...
korg aku cube nak berhati batu tp tu bukan aku.
d mana patut aku mulekan?
klu x wat pape ade la suara2 yang dok kate" ape pny boyfren la...."
klu spe yg ckp camtu xtau kondisi aku aku akan letop muke korg ngan bom yg letop altantuya tu...
mgkn aku emo sbb aku tlalu lme memendam rase kot..salah aku jgk..
patot ke aku biar bnd ni camni je?
ke nak biar serah pade takdir?
ke ade cam telepati connection yg leh connect ktorg klu ktorg x communicate...

kdg2 aku rse cam tehegeh2 pon ade...
ade satu ayt ni msh tbuku jd darah beku dalam ati aku sbnrnye....
'amek gambar ngn u?watpe?"
mgkn yg ckp ni akan lupe tp bukan aku...
hey,u knoe y?
cos u r someone special n every words that u uttered will effectively effect me...
oooppps sory..
its again not a big deal n aku je yg besar2 kan bnda ni....
sorry...
again...
aku penat dok kate bnda ni sbnrnye...

ble aku ingin satu ruang itu diisi bkn hanya secara zahir tp juga dr segi lahiriah...
tetapi sekarng tiada lahiriah tiada zahiriah...
wlu pon begitu aku slalu bsyukur sbb msh ade org2 di sisi aku yg mengisi ruang kosong itu...terima kaseh byk..
dgn korg aku x perlu tggu someone special to please me as u guys cheer me up even with mere existence...
u guys are priceless cos u love me unconditionalyy and without putting any benchmark for me to achieve.i just be me myself...
n im tired n exhausted of pleasing....

heartless state..tq.

2010-04-12T01:31:00.000-07:00

lap da start...
internet connection dpt tp xleh bkk fb...
boring...
arini xwat pape...pg datng salam sume org pastu advisor letak sebeban litigation and general advisory file soh bace...
apekah?

aku x rase ape2 weh...aku x rase ape2...aku jadi immune camni...
sblm ni aku ade rase tp mcm ade bvnda yg turn it off..salah aku ke?
ntahla....aku da xde rase...
heartlesss...
and its not a big deal...
so dont you ever bother as i now start not to bother....

god...
i miss mumu,yen,syafa,hezman,akub,ain,shima,numera aifa,rosna,aisya...
pls take a gud care of them...
god...
i miss her....
but its not a big deal though...

ntahla...

2010-02-13T22:44:00.000-08:00

ntah....ntah...ntah....
ko rse...
aku marah...sedih...sronok...gembira...
mmg ponn..hehehehe.

MEEHOON GORENG PEDAS..

2009-11-20T01:47:00.000-08:00

to all my fans(hahaha)..
ni bru ade mse nk update blog n its due to my promise yang this blog will be updated when i found my right person...

MAKCIK...
ktorg sekelas dri public speaking class lg and klu da jodoh x kemane..(haha)
klas event mgmnt pon skali even ktorg laen course(jodoh kan?)
i must thank to syapa cos dy yg initiate to match us up...(thank you very much syafa)
makcik ni ske sgt mkn meehoon,dy xleh minum coffee sbb dy ade migrain,n i knoe her sensitive part....(syyyy...),slalu target kat ctu klu xnak bg dye tdo...hahaha(korg jgn pk kotor k.)
dye ni kuat majuk....(hai...letihla nak pujuk...makcik jgn salu majuk eh..)
makcik ni x biase overnyte tp i yg ajar dy ovenyte..sian dy,arini dy nyaris accident sbb ngntok tyme drive..(makcik makcik...)
dy xnak i risau so dy x btau i,n ble i tau xkanla i x risau...

ive met her family..
bapak dye mcm garang tp baek..
mak dye cantek..(org kate nk tgk bini kte waktu tua kne tgk mak dye,so ble tgk mak dy i x risau..hahaha)...
cousin dye pon baek n friendly n pakcik dye sgt la byk ckp lg2 bab2 politik ni..dorg borak i tsipu je sbb x amek tau sgt politik pny hal sbnrnye..
satu hari tu dye merajuk x angkat kol x reply msg...(risau gle..)
mayb i gurau lbh2..i apology...(jgn wat camtu lg eh,coz its totally freaking n worrying me out)
hmmmmmmmmmmmmm.......

i nak u tau yg i maybe not as perfect as other men,not as rich as them,not as smart as them not as whatever people's definition of a right guy but this is just me...
i can be nobody and i just can be myself, n ure now having me as me..
and i need someone to fill any of my hole where i cannot fill it myself..
and ini semua kerja tuhan n i always pray for the verY best of us...
AMIN...

rejected, raye,rindu....

2009-09-24T12:41:00.000-07:00

dah lame x tulis,bkn ape,kat umah xde sambungan internet katenye...
byk bnda pentg blaku...

1.
Aku sudah mula mendekati si cokelat celup..
everything went so well and unexpected...
aku pn x sgka dgn respon yg begitu baek skali..
aku ke jln tar msmata nk cri kuih raye nak bg kt dy...hehehe.
esoknye aku pon prtama kali bersua utk mberi kuih tu,tp satu peristiwa berlaku yg wat aku xkan pnah lupa..
kebetulan pd petang hari tersebut si dia ade midterm,
aku bertanya..." da abis study?"
jwbnye"belom lg,doakan ye test ptg ni..."
jawabku..." ok,THANK YOU..."
motif aku ckp tq????
blek 2 dy msg tny aku nervous ke?????
MMG AKU NERVOUS!!!!!!!
aku xtau nape tp aku mmg terpana kjap tgk dy...
dy x cntek tp manis sgt,mcm name dy....

2. aku bertanya pd si dia....
xde teman istimewa ke..?
jwbnye tiada...malas katenye..
tp aku gatal korek punya korek ibarat mengorek lubang taik sendiri...
dy akhirnya mengaku suka pd orang lain yg telah cuba mengayat dy dr matrik lg tp bru thon ini dy stat ske pada lelaki ini....
aku lagi skali korek lubang untuk aku sndiri terjun brtanya...
so sye xde chance la ni???
jwbnye...hmmm.xde kot,sori tau..
mase 2 aku rase kipas yg bepusing atas kepala aku dah jatuh atas aku...
tp dy kte dy ske bkawan dgn aku n aku hormat perasaan dy..
btul kte mumu,klu kte ske kat org kte xleh nak expect org 2 ske kat kte jgk...
n mule2 aku nak back off tp korg rse aku ptot back off ke atau still kwn dgn dy..
pk pny pk aku wat cam biase..
biarla aku trlepas peluang utk jd sumone special utk dy tp aku xnak tlepads pluang utk jd kwn yg baik buat dy...
mne tau ade jodoh kami..
AMIN...
Ya Allah, kau tunjukkanlah klu benar dy untukku atau bukan untukku..
aku redha...

3. rye xbpe bes sbb ...
-xpat duet raye
-orang kate aku makin gemok(peglila mampos)
-org tny aku da ade brape anak?(korg mmg kurang ajor)
-aku kene dok umah teman nenek tggu org dtg braye sbb yg laen dda pg bejalan raye..

4.ni aku blek awl sbb nak g kak iju ngan abg jimy tunang...
xsabar nk jmpa kwn2 sume...

hari yang baik...

2009-09-05T13:26:00.000-07:00

alhamdulillah,arini aku sgt heppy sbb dpt berbuka dgn kawan2 n senior2 mumu yg sgt happening kat umah kak faiz..
thanx kak faiz sbb kenyang sgt n 4 being a very good host..
spt biasa syafa mjadi penghibur yang perform angat!
esok umah abg hairi plak...
makin tembun la aku mkn free...hahaha.

arini aku msg2 ngn CC(cokelat celop)...
temankan die xtdo nk siapkan assment konon2 pdahal aku nak memancing..
aku tny dy xde boyfren ke?
dy jwb mls nak kapel...
aku down skjap..
tp mumu ngan akob kate,mule2 mmgla mcm 2 tp bnd boleh d ubah...hehe..
dy pon ske karipap,sbb aku ni hantu karipap...aku suroh dy blaja wat karipap nty aku jual tp klu dy wat 100 aku jual 50 je yg lbh 2 msok dlm prot aku..
dy gelak...(tp dlm msg...)
aku dpt byg mst manis gle dy tgh gelakk....
aku bebunga x ingat cam nak lari 100 meter(tp xbleh sbb aku sempot)

kwn2...
especialy mumu...
thanx sbb korg byk bg aku dorongan dan nasihat utk tros usaha..

bubby n me...

2009-08-28T14:56:00.000-07:00

bubby jgn la slalu buat hal...
ikotkan ati aku mmg nak tolak ko msok sungai gombak..
tp ko da byk bejase..
siang tadi bru tukar bateri baru ni clutch ko plak buat hal..
prot aku memulas2, time ni la ko nk macam2,seb baek ade edie, klu x xdpt la nak kuar..
pil chik kit tek on aku da telan tp sakit x kurang lagi..
bubby jgnla slalu buat hal..
jauh lg kte nak pegi ni, nak bwk mem cokelat celop jalan nty mcm mne?
klu bubby wat hal jatuhla air muka..
tp bubby..bkn salah ko,aku yg x pndy jage ko..
bubby jgnla buat hal lg...
plssssssssss...

si cokelat celup

2009-08-27T13:21:00.000-07:00

yen tny klu aku dpt die mcmne?
aku kate aku akan trus ikat utk bertunang dengan die..
ntahla..klu xdpt pon die da wat aku plan mcm2 n aku nmpk mse depan aku kat mata die(bunyi mmg poyo tp aku mmg cam2)..
dgr name die aku da bebunge..
kwn2 kte aku lmbt betindak tp aku mmg mcm 2..
ntahla...klu aku dpt kau aku akn trus smpan duit mvm akob...hahaha..
nti aku smbg cte lg, mumu tgh tgu nk gune lappy ni...

alone...

2009-08-26T14:10:00.000-07:00

bulan ramadhan ni msuk yg ke-2 kali xde orang kejutkan aku bgun sahur, xde teman aku berbuka...
tp aku still ade kwn2 yg sgt aku syg n yg bleh pisahkan aku ngn dorg hnyalah ajal(x tipu)..
aku sedang, masih, akan dan terus mencari...
aku dah jumpa, tp aku blum pasti...
aku slalu mcm ni..
slalu xpasti...

p/s: aku dah stat memblog, lps ni blog la jd tmpt aku mluahkan isi hati..